Monday, August 27, 2007

Anybody up there?

"God, please forgive me. When I try to raise my thoughts to heaven, there is such convicting emptiness that those very thoughts return like sharp knives and hurt my soul. I am told God loves me, and yet the reality of darkness and coldness and emptiness is so great that nothing touches my soul. Did I make a mistake in surrendering blindly to the call of the sacred heart?"
– Mother Teresa’s letter to Jesus.


“Crisis of faith,” they write…about Mother Teresa? I have gone through my own crises of faith – from being religious to being an atheist, from following spiritual leaders to being an agnostic, from experimenting to blindly accepting…you pick a point in the spectrum, I’ve parked my slider there. Sometimes I wonder if faith is necessary, or you merely follow your calling. Does it matter? I think not. Not if you’re Mother Teresa. Not if you’ve put humanity above all your beliefs, and notions of the maker/the intelligent designer/the supernatural.